How narcissist Gina celebrates her child’s birthday

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One of the hardest tasks of parenting is recognizing that your child does not exist to validate you.

That means acknowledging that your child is a separate person, with talents, interests and needs that do not have to mirror yours.

It means that your son does not exist to achieve your dream of baseball stardom. It means that your daughter’s learning disability should not be ignored for fear that others will label her and thereby you as not perfect. And it means that your child should never, under any circumstances, be identified by whether or not HIS birth was the birth of of YOUR dreams.

Just in case you were still wondering whether Gina Crosley-Corcoran is really a narcissist, even after she lives blogged her homebirth and only allowed her sycophants to comment on it (Feminist Breeder doesn’t kill baby; supporters dazzled), Gina helpfully demonstrates that in her mind, it really is all about her.

The title of her current post is Happy 3rd Birthday to my 1st VBAC Baby, a post with all the subtlety of a sledgehammer:

Today is Julesy’s 3rd Birthday. 3 years ago today, my son gave ME one of the greatest gifts he could have, and that was MY first successful vaginal birth. Of course, I had my gorgeous, red-headed, perfectly healthy baby boy, and that was the ultimate prize — but the way he came into the world was a special gift in itself.(my emphasis)

What is wrong with this woman? Her 3 year old did not give her anything. Without ever consulting her child, she chose to risk HIS life by attempting a VBAC. Fortunately, it was successful, but the reality is that she put HIS life at risk in attempting to fulfill HER dream.

My son’s VBAC allowed me to have MY recent homebirth with MY choice of providers. If I’d had a second cesarean, it would have been very hard to find a provider willing to attend even a hospital VBA2C, and downright impossible to find any licensed provider in this state willing to attend a home VBA2C. I sincerely doubt I would have even tried to have a VBA2C if I hadn’t been able to vaginally birth the last time. My son’s VBAC very much meant that I’m sitting here with only one cesarean scar right now, instead of three. That’s huge. And for that huge gift, I will forever be grateful to that child for working with me the way he did. (my emphasis)

These paragraphs couldn’t have more “I’s” and “me’s” if it had been about her. Oh, wait, Gina thinks is about her.

No doubt this will come in really handy for her child’s therapist when he is an adult. It’s one thing to tell your therapist that your mother is a narcissist, that she sees everything through the prism of her own needs. It is another thing altogether to be able to provide permanent documentary evidence that she couldn’t even celebrate your birthday without repeatedly referencing herself, her needs, and whether they were or were not met.

Consider this definition of a narcissistic parent:

The narcissistic parent regards his or her child as a multi-faceted [s]ource of [n]arcissistic [s]upply. The child is considered and treated as an extension of the narcissist. It is through the child that the narcissist seeks to settle “open scores” with the world. The child is supposed to realise the unfulfilled dreams, wishes, and fantasies of the narcissistic parent…

As the therapist will be able to explain, Gina considers this child as the one who allowed her to “settle the score” when deprived of a vaginal delivery with her first child. And by “giving her” a hospital VBAC, the child allowed her to have a homebirth and allowed her to take her self-obsession to masses, live blogging what most people consider to be an intimate moment.

I have a personal message for Gina. She may ignore it, but no doubt she will read it:

Gina, take a long, hard look at yourself and the way that you treat your children. It’s okay to want attention; it’s okay to have needs and try to get them met. However, it is not okay to view your children through the prism of those needs, particularly the desperate needs you seems to have for attention and for validation.

Your son did not “gift you” with a VBAC, and your daughter did not “gift you” with a homebirth. And most importantly, your eldest child did not fail to “gift you” with the validation that you crave. They were born, through no agency of their own and with no intention to meet or not meet your needs.

It is wrong, wrong, wrong to expect your children to serve your needs. Adults should look to other adults for attention. And when it comes to validation, adults should enter therapy if they feel they lack the inner resources to provide their own validation.

Talk to your husband, talk to your friends, talk to a therapist. Don’t talk to your children about your needs and absolutely, positively do not create a permanent, written record of whether or not they met your needs (which is not their job, in any case).

Your children are not here to meet your needs. You are here to meet THEIR needs. Their number one emotional need is to be valued for who they are, not what they’ve done for you lately.

And next year, when your son celebrates his 4th birthday, see if you can celebrate with him, instead of celebrating yourself at his expense. His birthday is about him, not about you. The sooner you learn that, the better for all your children.